Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Day 6 - saving up (Wed.)

I always feel like I start out so well. i know others would argue, because breakfast is supposed to make you skinnier or something, and it's the "most important meal of the day" according to our grandmothers, and maybe some nutritionists, but really, i can't get that excited about breakfast. first of all, it's totally not worth waking up earlier. if i can sleep 5 minutes longer and sacrifice eating, absolutely worth it.

secondly, i really don't like breakfast food. not that it would matter, because it isn't like there's an abundance of it available when i wake up, but even if there was, still not that excited about it. i'm not gonna have a hamburger for breakfast. well, yeah, ok, i guess i would. if someone put it in front of me. anyway, that brings me to the real point.

thirdly, i feel like i'm "saving up" or something. like, if i don't eat a lot throughout the day, i can get away with more later. yes, i get progressively more hungry as the day goes on, so why not plan for it? sometimes i screw that up by eating too much for lunch, but if i don't, then i can have a decent sized dinner WITH alcohol and i don't go WAY over 800 calories. i mean, i usually do, but at least it's a total of 2000 and not 5000... i've done 5000 plenty in the past.

coffee with creamer and real sugar - 100?
the splenda stared at me with those little yellow packets of calorielessness.

it's really hard to concentrate on anything when we're MAKING AN OFFER ON THE HOUSE TODAY. omg. and i have to go to my old office this afternoon... i'm going to have to buy lunch even though nick sent left over pasta with me. that's bad on both a food and money level.

somehow food and money are always linked. in a bad way. i love excess in both but feel best about myself when i don't come in contact with eating or spending at all.

i keep thinking how - if we GET the new house!!! - we can get a kegorator (sP?) and then save tons of money. although then the beer will be even more easily accessible, but there's rarely any time when alcohol ISN'T readily available in our house. side note: if/when i'm pregnant, i guess this will be a money saver as well as a calorie saver. that's a BIG positive among all the negatives of pregnancy. selfish? yes.

i need to drink more water today.

1/4 granola bar - 50 calories

20 oz bottle of water - 0
good job me.

Wendy's jr. double cheeseburger with mandarin oranges and light lemonade - 550
all that rambling earlier about "starting out well" and i already messed it up.

diet coke - 0

shrimp and scallop pasta with tomato pesto sauce - prolly like 1000?
dude. bad news. i need like a pre-portioned amount. like a tv dinner. i do good on my first helping, small, conservative. but then i always go back if there's more left. i should just save it for lunch the next day, but i always have to get more.

2 1/2 blue lights - 400?
i felt like we should "celebrate" putting an offer on the house. although it sounds like there's no way our offer will even come close to what they need/want to take. i'm really freaking out about it, which makes me want to stuff myself or starve myself or both, if that was possible. i always find an excuse to have a beer - "celebrate" some mid-important event is probably one of the most common excuses.

2100 total-ish...
ugh.

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