Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Day 5 - thinspo vs. reality check (Tues.)

coffee with powdered creamer and real sugar - 100?
i still can't decide if being fat from calorie-filled sugar or getting sick from cancer-filled sweeteners is worse (slash-better). I go back and forth.

found out about Portia de Rossi's memoir from a blogger-friend today. 'Unbearable Lightness: A Story of Loss and Gain' reading about it makes me feel weak. it's a combo of thinspo and reality check. i don't want to be 82 pounds, but i should have just an OUNCE of her willpower and strength, right? i'm thinking about posting a pic of her at the bottom... it looks sick. it makes me want to lose weight, but reminds me that i wouldn't want to look like THAT.

1/2 salad and 3/4 pita from yesterday's lunch - 500?

i'm super SUPER dehydrated today. more than usual. my eyeballs actually hurt from being so dry. i think i should get water, but for some reason that seems like a HUGE chore to go to the water cooler...

ok.  finally.

2 20 oz bottles of water - 0
good job me.

can of diet Dr. Pepper - 0
damn you aspartame. 

by the time i had driven 1 hour and 55 minutes to get home, i was ready to eat. and to drink. not very concerned about calories or health. :(

pasta with turkey/veggie sauce - 1000?
i knew i should stop eating after the first bowl, but i couldn't... i was enjoying NOT driving and stuffing my face too much.

3 small glasses of sangria... - 300?
totally unnecessary. half the reason i even had sangria was because there really wasn't anything else to drink besides tap water. i hate drinking water in general... i know that's bad, but i really only drink it to stay alive. not because it has any other redeeming qualities in my opinion.

i feel like i'm missing something... did i eat something else? damn. it's driving me crazy...

well, i guess i'll go with:
1900 total-ish

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