Day 20 - That's the Goal (Tues.)

chocolate cake with peanut butter icing... - 3 million? ok, fine. 300?
what the hell? who eats this for breakfast? answer: i do. it was there and i was hungry and i didn't have any time to eat something healthy. grab and fork and stab for a forkful of chocolate peanut butter goodness is not something my willpower can resist.

1 GIGANTIC grapefruit - 150
back on track. that's what i'm telling myself. back on track.

i'm going to pre-populate the rest of my food for the workday. somehow i feel like if i've already counted the calories, when i eat them, they're like zero. what a happy feeling! so i haven't eaten this stuff yet, but here it is, the stuff i brought to work:

greek yogurt - 200
apple pear - 100
apple cinnamon oatmeal - 150

wow... 900 already... i need to stick to 300-ish for dinner? yikes... (i'm trying to change my goal of 800 to a goal of 1200. maybe that's still not ok, but it's BETTER, right?)

the other goal i have is to start eating little bits all day long. i used to be really good at this. that's where the "1/4 granola bar" came from. apple here, granola there, some almonds 2 hours later. i know that's what i'm supposed to do, but it doesn't make sense to do it if i have a huge 1000 calorie lunch. so i have to do 100 calories every 3 hours or so... that's the goal. THOSE are the GOALS, plural. 1200 calories / eat every 3-ish hours. this equals:

200 calories at 6am, 9am, 12pm, 3pm, 6pm, 9pm

the goal after that should be get rid of the 9pm. if i combine the 6 and 9pm time slots, that's better anyway because i don't get home in time to eat dinner by 6 and 9 is kinda late (i know i shouldn't eat after 7pm or whatever.) plus that, then my dinner can be 400 calories.

yay! this plan actually seems do-able!

mint tea with fake sugar - 0
i found something cool online about this... as i've mentioned before, i believe strongly in cleansing... "When included in the diet on a regular basis, mint reduces the growth of bacteria and fungus in the body. The antifungal properties associated with mint help in curing asthma and other allergic conditions."

diet dr. pepper - 0
1/4 granola bar - 50

i not really feeling very well. hopefully some yummy food will help! wings with nick's for-the-pilot IPA wing sauce tonight. :)

so, the night DID NOT go as planned. i felt really crappy when i got home and although i didn't feel good, i ate some more cake and had nick's wings (which rocked).

cake - 300?

wings with nick's IPA sauce - 500?

we went to B-dubs to meet with Larry, the producer guy, and i felt a lot better. i had a beer and sat for a little while and about an hour in, i thought i was going to die suddenly.

IPA - 300?

i basically had to jump up, say a quick goodbye and run outta there. just as i got to my car, i projectile vomited. i swear to god, that hasn't happened to me since elementary school. omg. what the hell? it was TERRIBLE. and i was all alone. i threw up once on the way home, out the open door of my car, side of the road. terrible.

the worst part is that after the fact, all i could think was wow, i guess i don't have to count the beer or cake or wings calories, at least SOMETHING good came out of this ordeal.

so today:

2050 total-ish
but really, probably around 1000 total
(with the vomiting)